Category Archives: English

A thousand Yen

I’ll water the purple flower I’ll straighten the back and stop those pokes I’ll swallow the sleeping pill But prior to that, I’ll buy a new cardo That saves the fragrant smell in my mini fridge I will introduce a … Continue reading

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Because I freaked out…

“Dear friends, Our friend R– has been undergoing chemotherapy for gastric cancer for the last two years. She is now in need of an aggressive operation. She has received the approval of a Washington, DC cancer centre for admission to … Continue reading

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Eager to see

I have been surfing the Internet looking for photos and representations of the signet ring cells that constitute my cancer. I attempted to paint the cell in my head a thousand times. And when I tried for real the result … Continue reading

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Dream #3

Pain I loathe your correctness Body Break free, nest your passion Spit, masturbate, breathe Breathe breathe breathe Spit her out, promise her

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السرطان قصة اخترعتها لتملأ فراغا احتلني Cancer is a story I made up to fill the emptiness that occupied me. Remember the days when we cherished pain When seeking suffering disguised in gain Diyala: my body physically rejects  these fantasies … Continue reading

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Now I remember the pain that the monster triggered when it grew up in my tummy. My tummy is little. It stayed little despite the monster but it became painful. I suspected it was the foetus I’ve always wanted. I … Continue reading

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An owl is roaming a bright sunny sky over Kusatsu General Hospital, and I, counting the hours until the moment of truth. Do I really want to live? What a question! Will I live? Is the question. I’m waiting for … Continue reading

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